update after 6 months

17/12/24

forgot about this section of the site. well, how things have been going after 6 months? quite nice actually, at least socially; in college I kind of have a cis passing now, which is very nice in security and comfort manners, I mean, I don't get called by my deadname or missgendered by anyone anymore, very rarely someone asks uncomfortable questions and people treat me like a cis guy. at the beggining I was very worried because I study a STEM and it's full of cishet men; I really thought I was going to be treated awful and like a weird thing or something, but in the end it was just fear hopefully.

on the last post I said I was waiting for a call of the endocrinologist to see the HRT thing and stuff. it got wrong. let's say the fucking psychologist that sees if "someone is ready for hrt" changed his opinion about me and didn't let me start testosterone. so I've been all these months trying to convince him to just let me and see why the fuck he doesn't want me to. some days ago I was told that he has this exact same problem with a lot of other adult trans guys, and that in fact what he's doing with me is wrong and must be intervened. so, I'm waiting again, a little more relaxed bc now I know the problem wasn't me.

going to happy things, I changed my legal name and sex! now I'm legally iván, and I'm so happy about that. also been going to a speech therapist, which have been a very slow progress, but is better than nothing. on the other hand, the relationship with my family is better, I mean, they still don't get it 100% but they are accepting it more since I changed my legal sex.

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15/06/24

sure wonder what's this. I decided to start like a "journal" of my gender transition, which just started this year (I was in the closet for several years); this for giving information about it from my experience or encouraging other trans folks. for context, I'm a trans man, transitioning FtM, pre-T, and living in Chile.

I came out of the closet as a trans man with my parents on April, it was with the psychologist of an accompaniment program for trans people that we have here in public hospitals. It went well, I mean, they don't understand it that much but nothing bad happened.
Also came out on college, where things went very well tbh, my classmates, teachers and people in general took it very natural, I guess it wasn't a surprise for them lmao. As my university allows trans students to change their social name, I changed it and now no one calls me by my deadname thanks god.

Now I'm waiting for 3 things: a call from the hospital to give me an appointment with the endocrinologist and see the whole testosterone topic, also another call for an appointment with the speech therapist for gender affirmative vocal training, and for my parents to assimilate better the whole thing to go and change my legal sex (yeah, I'm an adult, but I wanna wait a little bit for them).

fyi I'm doing all of this on the public health system of chile, so all my appointments are free, even testosterone if they give it to me should be free. that is a big thing, bc if it wasn't probably I would not be able to have access to trans healthcare.

So, I'll keep updating. see ya